Relationships.

[Ouberry_13]

I suppose I'll share my story. I've only had one relationship, and it ended about a year and a half ago. It was with my friend of 4 years. He was the only person I trusted, the only person I was fully open and honest with. I was a very moody cynical person, who avoided most people, and stayed silent. Emo? Sure, call it if you will, I don't care. But, he was the only person who made me smile just by being near me. Over the course of 4 years, he managed to get me to open up and be more friendly. Without him, I'm fairly certain I'd still be fighting with myself about my sexuality, I'd still be the cold, distant person I used to be. After finally beginning to act like a normal person and whatnot, my friend decided to ask if I wanted to start dating. I said yes, since I kinda had feelings for him, since he did help me come out of my depressive attitude. But, after about 2 months, I realized that I didn't have strong feelings for him, only feelings of friendship. When I told him this, he told me he came to the same realization, so we decided to go back to being friends. It's been nearly a year and a half, and we've grown distant and rarely talk now. I don't see myself getting into another relationship anytime soon, partly because I don't know any other gay guys anywhere near me, and partly because I'm simply not interested in a relationship. Sure, it would be nice to have someone to spend my time with, but it's not like I crave that.